It's Become A Losing Fight

my head hurts 

i cant breathe 

i feel the ground shaking beneath me 

i miss you im so lost 

never quite knew how much this would cost 

on my mental state the way i see 

the world and its opportunities 

everyone around me and what they say 

the way i spend everyday 

i keep waking up at 5am 

spend the morning tucked in my bed 

its the only place i feel truly safe from it all 

i wanna do so much but so far ive done nothing 

i wanna be all over tv when i die for something 

so i can rest knowing someone cared 

ive been trying really hard for the past few months to keep it together but sometimes things fall apart no matter the amount of effort