Ballad of a Guilty Mind

2001

May 10th

9:30 p.m

The moon fell

They got a house

And burnt it down

They knew the river

They kept south


He's born from ash

He will burn to ash


World made no sense

He had no friends

Who could protect him

From what would commence


There's no one


Torn apart by what he'd seen

He locked himself inside a screen

He felt the colors in between

The pixels it was dopamine

It's all he'll know until a teen

And then his world will break in three

From school and friends and family

He never acted honestly


The light turned green

He hit the gas turned down the street

He thought of dying in a car seat

He thought of crying and stars and sleep

He thought of time

Nothing made him feel so bleak

He had to hide inside retreat

His state of mind was too guilty


He found out if you broke down love and hate

That they were both the same

At least that's how it felt

Ashamed of everything he had to say

The only way to ease the pain

Came from the smoke

It's all the same

Life is a game

Insurance claim on my name

I'm counting down days

I'm what's wrong with the world today


I am what's wrong with the world

I can't swallow I hurl

I can't follow I twirl

I am hollow

My hand won't uncurl

My face won't relax

Why won't they step back

I know that I'm bad

But what's worse than this rotten world


I have to act out I could never calm down

This the anthem for everyone who's knocked out

I'm gonna rise up I won't take the fall now

Yeah the time's up

I'm Wicked Evil and no one could save me now